Change

Wow, I cannot believe so much time has passed by since I was last here. Time sure does fly by. Lots going on, between work and just the daily grind, a lot of times I am just so busy and tired that I do not get here to post.

I have been going through a lot of changes in my life. Learning to not live my life based on my emotions, but really thinking about things and making wise decisions and choices by really thinking things through. I spent some time earlier this year with a counselor who taught me, not to just react to the stresses in my life, not to jump up and rally using my emotions, but to take a minute, step back and think about it, walk away from it and then come back and make a sound decision that will work for the long term. This not only gives me time to make sure my decision is the right one, but also helps keep my emotions in check, and by not reacting to every thing and instead acting in a rational manner...I will keep my own sanity and learn to have pride in myself.

I am a 44 year old woman who is finally learning to rely on myself, and function as a smart woman, not an emotional wreck. I have hurt others because I made poor decisions and I need to make sure that what I do from now on shows that I am trying to correct those mistakes and stand on my own two feet. I have a long way to go, but I will get there...one day at a time.

I know I will not always make the "right" decisions for everyone else, but at least if I follow my heart and that wise part of my brain, I will make the right ones for myself.

A lot has changed, a lot has not, but I am a stronger person for all of it.